Ok so I don't know why but my baby clock is TICKING, which is making my marriage clock start ticking really loud too!! I heard the perfect quote the other day on a movie, she said, I dont know how to explain the feeling, but it's like being hungry or having to pee, and you just need it. Well thats how I feel, its just a feeling in the pit of my stomach that nothing will fill until I have a baby. I don't need one right now, hell we can't afford one right now! But man oh man do I want one!! To the point to wear Jeff and I have picked out names. So that means he is on board right?!?
Now, I want to this the right way. I want to get married, and then have a baby. But something inside of me is so afraid that it will hard for me to get pregnant. Maybe thats why I want it so bad right now. Say Jeff and I dont get married until next year. What if it takes another 3-4 years to get prego. I will be almost 30, and Jeff will be in his late 30's. I want us to be a young fun mommy and daddy. I think I am just really afraid that it won't happen or it will take a really really long time..... can't explain it !!!
But I know its all in God's hands. It is up to Him and Him alone on when I will be blessed with a baby, I just wish he and I were on the same page so I wouldn't be so worried!
Till Next Time~
Carla Rae
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